2009. A year full of cries and laughter. A year I lost some but gain a lot more. I am happy with what I have currently and don't wish to change a thing or turn back the clock cos' everything happen for a reason, yes? One chapter close and starting a brand new chapter of my life. December is just tomorrow, 2009 is coming to an end and 2010 is arriving. :)
School's starting. Time to get new a pencil case, pens, pencil, ruler, high lighters, eraser and prepare for the new semester!
On a sad note, Leonard told me they(dad, mum and him) might be going to BKK for a short gateaway on yours truly birthday! I can't go as I need to go for my enrolment the next day which is the 15. :( On top of that, bro's gf coming over on yours truly birthday as well that means bro will be busy with his gf, his gf's mum and school, so, he would't have time for me. And I just run to my mum and rant to her that I want a birthday cake and present this year! I don't care! :D
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25 November 2009, 5:23 PM ♥ Tonight I can write the saddest lines. Write, for example,’The night is shattered and the blue stars shiver in the distance.’ The night wind revolves in the sky and sings. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too. Through nights like this one I held her in my arms I kissed her again and again under the endless sky. She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too. How could one not have loved her great still eyes. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her. To hear the immense night, still more immense without her. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture. What does it matter that my love could not keep her. The night is shattered and she is not with me. This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her. My sight searches for her as though to go to her. My heart looks for her, and she is not with me. The same night whitening the same trees. We, of that time, are no longer the same. I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her. My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing. Another’s. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before. Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes. I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her. Love is so short, forgetting is so long. Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her. Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer and these the last verses that I write for her. 23 November 2009, 3:06 AM ♥ I am dying. One day I sleep alot and the next day I don't sleep at all. And when I don't sleep, I play all the emo-est songs on my Itunes.. then start thinking.. then have mixed feelings.. then bad feelings.. then mood swings. :( I got so much to ask, but I think I better not ask.. in case.. I don't know.
Good night. 21 November 2009, 4:06 AM ♥ Hate the cough and flu bug. Crazy to be awake at such hour. 4 more hours to meet Bbbbb. Dale is staring at me. Bear is finally back! Enjoyed that three hours just seating down in school and catching up with Malz. I want to watch Christmas Carol. I am feeling hungry but at the same time full. Milk pan and raisin bread. I miss you.
Should I sleep? Cos if I sleep I don't think I can wake up later. 19 November 2009, 12:56 AM ♥ I want that bag, that earring, that necklace, that watch and that shoes.
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